My 18-Year-Old Brother Says I'm a Coward
Is he correct?
One of my most prominent critics (apart from me) is my brothers. Any chance they're given, they criticize my actions. You may wonder, "aren't you the older brother? Shouldn't you give them a hard time?" You're correct, but I'm too nice to treat my brothers or anyone terribly. Yet it doesn't mean I can't act selfish or self-centered, which my brother said of me.
In the eyes of my brother, he views me as someone who doesn't speak up and is afraid to take action. I'm a loser, a coward. Perhaps he's right. I have escaped conflicted or tried my best to avoid speaking my opinion throughout my life. I don't avoid being in the spotlight because of cowardice. My social anxiety makes me avoid it. Since birth, it's been the mental disease gnawing at me, and it hasn't let go.
I have autism as well, and I've used my disability as an excuse. I will tell my brother this excuse, and he'll say some of the greatest minds were autistic. They didn't let their handicap stop them from developing today's concepts many individuals use. So if their struggles didn't stop them, why should they halt me?
I wonder if he viewed me as a coward back in 2019 when I tried my damn hardest to get out of the house and become independent. Perhaps he did, but that's in the past. Now that I'm not trying, my brother…
